Thursday, July 15, 2010
Monday, July 05, 2010
I forgot to announce, I am already done with it. Submitted!!
Hooray!!!! Here comes my freedom!!
Posted by F.E.A at Monday, July 05, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Posted by F.E.A at Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Things had gone differently for me in life. Looking at all the childhood photos of my friends in facebook, vaguely reminded me of how different my life has turned up. The drinking part, I think i will pass that as my tolerance wont be as good as theirs, but the bond they have is so special that somehow I wish to have a share of it.
But then again, I realize - I worked so hard in life to be where I am now. I sacrificed a lot just to achieve my dreams in life. I have taken full responsibilities of my action and all the decision I have to make or have made. If I limit myself and only stick to the status quo, I don't think I will be where I am now. With all the sacrifices I have made, I deserve this.
Of course I want to re-connect with my childhood friends again, but the differences between us had gone so far off, I don't know where to start. I miss all my kampung mates and how fun it is to be with them. Looking at those pictures, it reminds me so much of how relaxing it is to be in your home ground.
It's true what they say, the older you get, the smaller the circle of friends you have in life. I always tell myself, "maybe after im done with this or with that, I will keep in touch with them again..." I realize, I have been saying that for the last couple of months. And I know I will keep saying that even after few months from now. The thing that really bothers me right now is the completion process of my MASTER. The whole process is ridiculously so long-winded and it is now taking a toll on me. My prof is worried that I might just give it up, so she always say this, "sikit je lagi...you're almost there". But I have been rushing for this since February 2009, and until now I am still struggling to complete. The only good thing is, there are few more forms to complete, and one more appointment to make before i can submit my hard cover. And that alone is taking so long. I am jeopardizing my current job by escaping to my university for so many times just to get all the signatures for 5 different forms. I have 8 more working days to submit my hard cover for senate approval. If I miss the date, I will only get to wear the graduation gown and the mortar board next year!! For now, the only thing I can do is just finger crossing hoping these people will expedite things for the good of all people.
Posted by F.E.A at Sunday, June 20, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Only God knows how tough it has been for us
Only God knows how we suffered inside
Only God knows how patient we've been during those trials
Only God knows how much tears we have shared
Only God knows......
And now, after endless prayers and sacrifice, everything starts to pay off..
Posted by F.E.A at Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
I feel like being robbed.
Yes, I am single. No kids. No marriage plans yet.
A fairy tale says I am earning well. Duh~~ like everybody else doesn't!! But why do I feel like I am being stripped from my clothes?? *figure of speech ok*
When I started working, everybody thinks I should contribute more. Everybody thinks my money is everyone's money. The amount of contribution I have to make is expected to be the same as those members who have been working for 5-10 years? Are they being fair to me?
When I work for this company, everybody is waiting for me to make mistakes so they can say, "seeee, she's just too proud of herself" "she's very ego now.!!" why?? why?? why?? why do i have to receive all this pressure?? Why can't everybody just be happy?
This is just sad. Freedom come and freedom go.
Life is just great!!
Posted by F.E.A at Wednesday, June 09, 2010