Thursday, February 16, 2006

What MONEY can and can't do.. ask yourself!!

It's pretty amazing how money can change people's life... i mean ive seen it myself.. some people that i really care about. It's pretty clear to me that when it comes to money, everybody forget about other important things in life for some instance- kindness, morality, friendship etc. What can you say, money is the root for everything, according to some people. They are willing to do anything when it comes to that.

But what money can do for you? can it buy you love? or friendship? just because you can have everything you want with money, doesnt mean you have the right to downgrade other people right? do you have aura when you have the money? it makes me think, what if you dont have money? does it make you a person without aura? what aura really means anyway? oh goodness, i need a dictionary to make me understand this whole thing, its beginning to confuse me...

what money can buy?
1. Friends
2. House
3. Book

what money can't buy?
1. Friendship
2. Home
3. Knowledge

That's only a few example that i can think of now.. but i think it is enough to make you realize that money can't give you everything tho' it can help you in some ways... Dear friends, think of others who and what matter the most to you. you wont know what ure missing until you lost them... Do not take thing for granted.. Hope you have a good life..

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

^-^HaPPy VaLenTinE's DaY to aLL of YoU!!!^-^

Valentine's for lovers and for friends.
All my love goes out to you this day!
Love is something different from desire:
Even, silent, peaceful as the sky.
Nor is love interested in means or ends.
There are no selfish needs that it must weigh.
Instead, love's plenitude itself inspires,
Needing neither cause nor reason why.
Each day my thoughts enchanted with you lie..

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone,
near or far, you will always be remembered..

To the couples out there, enjoy your Valentine's day with your loved ones..
Tho there will be another Valentine next year but it wont be the same each time we celebrate it, so treasure the moments and the times at present, for, we are uncertain with what's coming in future to come.. May God bless you and your loved ones

To the singles out there (and also those whom are far apart from dear ones),
You are not alone, if love is always in your heart,
you will still be surrounded by people who loved you so dearly..
Valentine is not only for lovers, it is meant for everyone who is willing to share..

No one should be alone for this day, enjoy yourself and May God bless!!

History of Valentine's DaY..

Every February, we can see that candies, flowers and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But do you know who is this mysterious saint and why do we have this celebration? All we know is that February has long been a month of romance.

I’ve read thru few articles about this celebration through the net and the stories were quite intriguing for me.

One legend said that Valentine was actually a priest whom defied against the emperor, Claudius II, for outlawing marriage. Valentine secretly performed marriages for young lovers and when Claudius discovered his defiance, Valentine was sent for death sentence. According to the legend, Valentine was the first one to send “valentine’” greetings when he fell in love with a young girl, believed to be the jailor’s daughter. Some believed that Valentine’s day is celebrated to honor Valentine’s death or burial. The stories mostly emphasize on Valentine’s heroic and romantic figure.

In ancient Rome, February was the official beginning of spring and was considered a time for purification. Houses were ritually cleansed by sweeping them out and then sprinkling salt and a type of wheat called spelt throughout their interiors.

Later, during the Middle Ages, it was commonly believed in France and England that February 14 was the beginning of birds' mating season, which added to the idea that the middle of February -- Valentine's Day -- should be a day for romance.

In Great Britain, Valentine's Day began to be popularly celebrated around the 17th century. By the middle of the 18th century, it was common for friends and lovers in all social classes to exchange small tokens of affection or handwritten notes.

-Stories are taken from and edited by Fellie.

Monday, February 13, 2006

"EXPECTATION is neVeR a MiddLe NaMe For Me"

Anonymous said...
Ran through your blog, was interested with the blog you just posted... yeah, friends come and go, but it all depends on both party. You cannot expect your friends to keep looking for you when you didn't even make the effort of replying them. That's what i thought... So, i think you have your part to do to maintain a friendship... All I can say is, human are selfish, no matter they say otherwise, they are selfish in some aspect... Peace...
2:20 PM

Thanks for the comment, dear anynomous. i couldnt agree you less that people are born selfish. That suits to the famous saying "nobody is perfect except for the Man above" No matter how much we want it to be perfect, there are always lackings filling up the gaps. But it is never wrong to be selfish when it is for the better. I am not saying that selfish is good. we are human being, born with a brain, we should know to differentiate the good and the bad.

I do realize im not really good in keeping in touch, and i have to admit that there are some part of me which is hard to break and which i called 'egocentric'. I believe that most people do have their own pride and some of them even refused to hold loose to their principles or whatsoever, and that's people, that's human race. No matter how innocent or kind they are, human are born sinful. No doubt.

I was reading this comment over and over again and there is one word that make me think over and over again, I went like "did anyone ever try to reach me and i didnt even reply them?" (Now, you know which word i was referring to - its higlighted with a red color). OoooppsssSSs, as far as i can remember, i do reply those who tried to reach me. Or did i miss any of them? wookay, this thing i have a problem with -"short-term memory lost". But to whom it may concern, i am sorry if i never replied. I had a few miss-calleds but i am not sure how to reply that, should i reply with a miss call too? haha, im just kidding.

No matter what, i do appreciate friendships tho' sometimes it didnt really work out like how i want it to be. For me it's okay, i guess, and i will never blamed anyone for that. We move on and that's it. It is always hard to express something which is more than words. However, expectation is never a middle name for me. It's just that, sometimes you think of the old times and you start wondering, what happened now?

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Friendships that went away

Believe it or not… friends are easy to find but only few will probably stay when the going gets tough. I have bunch of friends… some are younger, older, some are boys, girls, old folks but some of them are just like the ships on the ocean or cars on the move… you will only see them at one point of your life. But at some turning points, they are just like the shadows; you know it’s there but they are just, i dunno, out-of-the-way? I found myself not so keen of looking for people for company except for those who are a dear to me and whom i treasure the most. I put no effort in staying in touch with them, it’s not because I don’t care. It’s because I don’t like to disturb people and I prefer that they find me first.

Even back in UMS, I have lotsa friends, but UMS is now way behind me. It is just a memory in my head and it felt like the friendship I had in UMS is almost a memory behind my head that seems to fade away. What happened? I seriously have no idea. Is it my fault that I became so unaware of the updates of my friends? Am i forgotten? Or, am I dead?

I guess i shouldnt expect much from people. Leave it like how it is supposed to be, move on and enjoy life to the fullest. But it’s funny whenever this whole thing strike me. I feel like writing a book about it. That is why i don't really search for company because i would most likely avoid any unnecessary attachments. No matter how much i feel bored at times, i restrain myself from stepping to a wrong path.

Belle called me just to check in, which is very sweet of her. She was like “What happened to you, lie? you’ve been so silent for a long period, is everything okay?” I know I am lucky to have Belle here. We planned to meet up and spend time together for valentine but we both are now having financial constraint so we will put the idea on hold until everything is in place.

And not to forget Jaffri and Azfar who have been there for me whenever I need them. Thanks so much guys… I spent my last sunday with my bro Jim and Azfar and we had Teppanyaki and arcade games before movies in OU. After movies, we went to IKEA before calling it a day. I enjoyed the lunch, the arcade games, movies and IKEA so much. We didnt do anything so grand or use a lot of money but it was so much fun. Tribute to Azfar for being such a sweetheart that day to me and Jim.

Despite the frustration i get because of this failure, i feel blessed for having such good friends after all. I know i dont lose them all and these are the friendships that i want to keep for life.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Never a "girl next door"

Why am i still lingering here? What happened to the happy-go-lucky LIE... well i still am.. it's just that maybe something occured in me. Knowing that Jaff is back home... it's not fair i cant go back.. Home is always a holiday for us. it's always nice to be home with all the catching ups to do.

Well, i do realize some people prefer to stay at their home place and unwilling to leave their comfort zone, and i was thinking myself why did i leave home? well, sorry to say, tho' how much i love home, but it was no good for me. Furthermore, i like to create my own reality, my future and my life. I refused to be under people's shoes and i like to uncover the unknowns of the world outside. I get to adapt to a new life, meet new people and i get to change whatever i don't like about myself. People don't know you and you can make the whole new you. It's like a time for a make over session. And for me it is so much fun and challenging, which are what im looking for in this life.

My sister Lidwina and the nuns (who are also my aunty) Sister Judith and Sister Laurencia, said that i am stubborn but religious in a way. I was like, WHAT??? okay, stubborn i may accept that because it's true but religious?? well, i do pray, i acknowledge God's presence and i do count my blessings and thank Him for that. But i am never religious, Tharmaindra second me on that. But if you say it is religious, in that way, well, okay, that is your point of view. It doesnt hurt so im okay with that. HAHA. I can feel my nose is also laughing with me. BIG TIME.

I am always a dream chaser. I'd like to make the impossibles become attainable, i would like to go far. But how far would i go, that depends. Whatever it is, love is my strongest platform. Without it, there would be no podium to support faith and hopes. hey, that's only my pov.

I always love home and my family no matter how hard it is to stay in good relationship with them. Home is always home, family is always family. There is always gaining and losing at the end of the days, that is my family, no matter what. I left home because i had to and i wanted to, for the sake of my being and it is for the better. I have my dreams and i can't depend on them anymore. i can't wait for them to feed me or sing me lullaby at night so i'll get to sleep peacefully.

My dreams are already before me, whether i am ready for it or not. I couldnt just let it slip away because that was like a lifetime opportunity and a stepping stone to a new life. I always want a new life, and this is it. I don't like to be ordinary and i always enjoy making people go like, "What??! fellie does this, fellie does that?" People can roll their eyes, they can gossip about me, they can even complain but one thing they cant do is , TOUCH me!!! I am striving for a better future not a predictable future. I refuse myself to remain as "a girl nextdoor". I want to be wild, in a good way. That is me. I will bring my dreams to life. I will make my family proud of me, someday, somewhere. I dont mind being the blacksheep in the family. When i get what i want, then i will bring the victory home and tell them. "Mom, dad, sis, bros, I am home."

Memories of the PAST..

Interesting topic i would like to talk about here is..memories of the past... and stupidly i am still holding on to the past, which is not good, indeed. It is like a stain on a carpet. You can always put something on it just to cover the stain, like maybe, tables or ports or cabinets, whatever items you can use to cover it. Or maybe even better, you can just remove the whole carpet, throw it and get a new one. But, how if you refused to cover the stain or buy a new carpet?? You want it to be there, no matter how ugly it may looked like. WHY? Maybe because of the story behind the stain, right?

"Oh, that stain. It was my best friend's fault. She spilled her drinks on it and it was funny and memorable when it happened. I don't think i want to forget that. Let the stain remain where it is so i will always remember her eventhough she is miles away now."

Well, at least that was a good memory and worth for keeping. I mean, all memories are worth for keeping. But how if that memory make u realize something and makes your future on hold? You can hardly go back nor move on.

Did it ever occur to you? it occured to me. Now.

Design by 2007-2008