Friday, January 26, 2007

Life's a cycle.....

hmm, it's been a while since ive posted something here, pardon me for i've been really busy for the past few weeks with the labworks, dancing practice for Malam Kebudayaan organized by a christian group in UKM, namely PERKEB, and CSS (Christian Student Society) activities which i am recently active in.

Let me cut the fuss of telling my little tally to you by uploading few pictures i have in my camera, which was recently taken.

CSS breakfast sales for Coffee Morning

The Bfast crew for the coffee morning (21.07.06)

Memorable picture at the chruch's hall of Holy Family, Kajang

Exxon Mobil Mock Cheque Presentation at UiTM, Shah Alam

From left:
Mr. Hareesh Pillai (GM of EMPMI, Exxon Mobil),
Prof. Dr. Salmijah (Deputy Dean of FST, UKM a.k.a 'my supervisor'), myself with the wrong outfit to wear (ouch!)

Practice for Upcoming Event (Malam Kebudayaan)

Dancing Practice for the upcoming event (Malam Kebudayaan 2007') organized by the Christian group from UKM, namely PERKEB

"Im Shifting to our new HOUSE!!!!"

The House-shifting troop (More details on this later)

so that was the recent updates, and i will keep you posted.

*signing out*

Saturday, January 13, 2007

New blog title

I am going to change the title of my blog to "Lie's Heart Out" which i think is the best name to portray the content of my blog.

But do not worry, the add to my blog will stay the same.... and there will be no further changes except for a 'time-to-time' template refreshment. (blink*blink)

Friday, January 12, 2007

The road not Taken

Two Roads diverged in a yellow wood,
and sorry i could not travel both
and be one traveler, long i stood
and looked down one as far as i could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no step trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

I learned about this poem from a Christian fellowship I attended today, which i have been reluctant to join ages ago. I guess God's love made me realized how much i long to worship Him. I was greatly tormented by the eagerness of praising God and worshiping Him endlessly - to feed the needs of my soul. My waiting ended with a rewarding conclusion. How glad i was to receive Daniel's SMS giving me the details of today's fellowship, better still, he offered me a lift. Well, the details are too long to mention. Let's go back to the poem highlighted.

If you see the sketch i have done, though it was not properly drafted but i hope it gives you a rough image of what this poem is all about.

The diverged roads are the path some of us may face in this life. There is an easy path, nonetheless, there is always the harder ones (The bushy road represents the harder path, while the clear road represents what the author illustrated as "grassy and better claim").

Why is this poem so meaningful to me?

Apparently, I have crossed and traveled so many roads. While the easy road has yet to give me any changes into my being, the harder paths that i have gone through in life has in fact scraped a lot of my inner side. But do i regret all the harder roads i have once taken? No. The harder path taught me to climb, to swim, to jump, and to run. It gave me a reason to cry when my skins were torn by the devious thorny leaves, when my legs were too tired to walk, when my wounds bleed endlessly, when the hills were too high to climb. Will I ever reach there? While everyone is taking a few minutes run to the finishing line, I am taking my whole day to wipe my sweats and to find a way to reach to the end.

Do i regret taking the harder road? Do i curse myself for choosing the wrong path?

The road less traveled by, is the road i am willing to choose because there is no greater thing than to learn and explore the wilderness of life and to escape from the sweetness virgin of life; To taste the blood, to taste the roughness of the water, to taste the bitterness of the thorns, and to sweep myself away to the black woods and become a warrior of my own.

Whatever path you may have chosen, there is always a way out. I believe in chances and i believe in making my dreams a reality.

I hope my sharing gives you something to hold on in your life. Hopes and faith come together, then the love will slowly emerge itself away - and one day, you will know how meaningful are all the choices you have made. Hope you will see meaning in this poem, and guide you to where you want to be.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Why worry? Just live your life with happy tears...

Most of the people around me are too scared of the future and what more the reality they have to face.

What say you if someone knock on your door and says,

God, I am too scared to go home, what if my husband is there with another lady?”

My goodness, stop being so paranoid. An hour ago, I saw your husband cleaning the backyard before he left for a jog with my husband!

There will be a time when our life is in a critical point, and of course, we always exaggerated how big it was (Haha, sounds like me though!). Well, I do have a lot of drama in my life, and I can’t deny those times when I cry almost every night like a baby as if I was crying for milk. Life is unfairly difficult, none can deny that. Everyone has their own hardships, just maybe the problem we had was harder or less tricky. I have to admit there are times when I say,

Why can’t I have family like hers? Why can’t my life be so easy like his?”

But, I don’t think I will be the ‘Fellie’ that you know now if I am not where I am now. Whatever it is, life is not to waste, but to savour every moment we have.

These few months, I learn a lot about forgiving others, opening up to the world outside, believing the most important thing in our life and having faith in whatever I do. I believe that God has His plan for us, and we should worry less of the things we are having or about to have.
Dear Heavenly Father, remind me that those days when I was crying and hurting, You were there to feed my emptiness and fill my life with faith and hope.

Remind me that this life is not for me to honor my prideful existence, but for me to treasure how beautiful is Your creation and to
realize how great is Your love to humankind.

Help me to serve the needies and help me to love those who feels unlove, help me to touch others with my love which You have given to me.

and I believe that praying is the most powerful thing we can do....

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Xmas n NY hols 2006-2007

I know i should have updated my blog every now and then, but the connection nowadays are so dissapointing and plus, i am always tired. Anyways, here are the updates ive been wanting to share...

The holiday was fun but im not sure how to describe it since i had a drama (again!!) before i came back to Bangi. Well, i guess it was good in a way that i am not feeling homesick after having a really long holiday.

One good thing about Christmas is, it brings all the good memories you had with everyone around you, and those you have not seen for a very long time. You tend to miss your family, relatives and friends. You began to wonder what they have been up to for the whole one year.

Christmas 2006 was different. I guess it was all God's work that i had a very bad week before i came back to KK. Because of His greatest love for me, He wants me to realize what matter the most to me - all along it was Him that i really need to fullfill every of my needs. It was Him that i should rely on when the path is blurry and when the sun stop shining in my days. I felt His love and I long for His presence in my life.

A meaningful phrase that i will never forget in my entire life "Seek God first and all other graces will be given unto you"

These are the graces i have been receiving during the trials of my time.

20th December.... a lot of friends came to see me... Thanks to all...

24th December 2006
me, cousin, sisters, and nieces
(Maegan, Bibi, Sanchiya, Kane, Me, Sarina, Louisa)

29th December 2006
SMP reunion at Pizza Ria, Damai

New Year Bash at home
(Aaron, Cindy, Adrian Katam, Joanna, Virgil, Myself)

There are a lot more pictures like i mentioned earlier, connection are very bad... :) the stories will come in time....

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