one slight moment...im writing from my mind...

it's lunch time...

but before i even begin..let's read the poem that suddenly flow into my head at this very minute...

Gazing at the empty spaces in my room
Feeling like the world is close to doom
Making my life a total misery
Offering my fate to all the cries

Nightmares engulfed my very sleep
Mourning over days like a lost sheep
Feeling useless but why do I care
Tasting the pain, what so unfair…..

These are my cries for my everyday
Worshiping darkness, I am the lady…
Why do I write this im so unsure
But look at my heart that is fairly pure…

dun ask me why i wrote those...i was actually playing the rhymes and it turned out to be... scary??? heheheheh...im very good at making things a bit creepy.... but dun worry...there are just words...

uNknOwN GeStUrE

spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on,
But I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

DARN i got a 3 past years to do, two lecture notes to revise and two revision exercise to ace..

WHAT a wonderful WORLD..*sarcasm* asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

DARN i got a 3 past years to do, two lecture notes to revise and two revision exercise to ace..

WHAT a wonderful WORLD..*sarcasm*

Monday.....monday...monday!!!!!

today is monday...
I hate mondays...usually i hate mondaysss because monday means the first day of the week and that means you have to get up early to get to work...and the feeling to go to work is so awful that you regret it your whole life...

but today... it was one of the most wonderful monday i ever had... first thing is because it's HOLIDAY!!!! and i dun have to get myself out of bed that early... i slept at 5am last night, reading a novel called "walk to remember"... actually i had a second thought of reading that book when i flipped into the pages few days ago and found the story to be damn slow and dull... reminds me of the movie i went with my supervisor last thursday, an indonesia movie which has no climax at all.

i know in my previous post, i was cursing about my unlucky days at the beginning of the week but the weekend ended up wonderfully...well, it was nothing to brag about... just that i got to know more people (2 girls) on last friday when eechi was on the way to my place. actually these two girls are working in starbuck as a full time worker, and they are a year or more younger than me, seriously. and i ruined the conversation by asking one of them a stupid question;

Me: are you a part timer in starbuck?
Ita: Nope, full time. I have no life. Starbuck is my second home and they are my family, my life.

i was silent for a moment and at the same time regretting for my unawareness of asking that stupid question because prakash had told me like few times she's the manager in starbucks, and that means she had been working there for long, as a full timer. I let out a sigh and cursing in silence. but lucky she was cool about it. she took us (me, prakash and caroline) to a mamak stall near my place. Ita is 21 or 22 and Caroline was a lot younger than all of us there, she's only 19 or 20. and i found out that she's one of Britney spear's die hard fan. but she's cute...oh yes she is. then after our light dinner, Ita sent me home. so that was friday.

Saturday came, and me and eechi made a plan to watch Star Wars with Shah...
at first, we went to times square and there are a lot of people there, i thought it was simply rare since its saturday but actually there was a competition going on that day... it was a breakdance championship competition organized and sponsored by echopark. well the competition was the kinda thing u see in "you got served" only that they dun compete in groupies and judged the winner by majority voice. one person will represent their group in each round and i only managed to see one performance because i almost cant see the stage, there are 'big' people everywhere so we gave up and went for Star Wars... we went to KLCC at last because the movie tickets for star wars in TS were filling fast... The movie turned out to be what everybody expected but not the way that i like.... ANAKIN became the bad guy???? i mean that handsome Anakin Skywalker????? he's cute for Gawd sake, and he should be the hero!!!! and padme died of childbirth...the ending was a dissapointment!!!

the next day, went to Gombak to meet Jim... and i was the one who drove my cousin's car...so announcement to everyone, i can officially tell you now, without any doubts that...i can drive around KL.... but remain as safe driver...drivers here are so reckless that they are like the monsters who gonna eat you at anytime...u just have to be aware with ur surroundings...

we were supposed to go to Bangsar that night but then because of the communication problem, we cancelled our plan... so me and eechi stayed in the room, had maggi for dinner and watched the "Super-size me" documentary. called prakash and told him i miss playing with his wife.... been missing his wife too much that i cant get enough of playing my fingers with it the last time i met her. hahahah, dun get me wrong. i was talking about his guitar, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING???

prakash was teasing on my habits getting up late...and that was because i slept only at 5 o'clock in the morning. i need at least 5 hrs of my beauty sleep to get my mood and my energy back... :)

so obviously now prakash had gone home, if he's not i wont be blogging here...my fingers itself will be busy on the strings and not the keyboard...

Gosh, i hate the feelings of having to wake up early tommorow for work... gawd!! i wish im still in UMS. oh well, 3 more weeks then im done here... say goodbyes to room '308'. ahhahaha, that's my room number.... :) :)

ok, gota make this fast... its almost dark here... hv to be home before 8pm.. so till future, bye.

what an unlucky week!

this week was not my favourite week as i have encountered lotsa difficulties which caused by my own clumsiness and others too.

yes, the first one is the bathroom. the lady which is staying next to my room is responsible for it, but what happened is that... she's gone after she knew what she had done... what an old B**ch!!! so, ive been using my landlord's bathroom for few days. but they left for terengganu last night and that means "HOW THE HECK AM I GOING TO TAKE MY BATH BEFORE GOING OFF FOR WORK?????!!!" the landlord suggested that i can use the upstairs toilet and first thing came to my head was that "isnt that the place where all the bangladesh stay?" .... i went up and checked on the place and it's totally not the best option. after talking to my co-supervisor about it, she said i can go early to the office the next day and use the toilet. But then, this morning when im so ready with all my toileteries to bring to the office, i went to the bathroom to use the sink (the only one that can be used except for the toilet bowl). and i saw that there's no more water stucked in the bathroom...means, the bathroom is functioning againnnnnn!!!!!! that's the best part so far...

second, i was so upset when i found out that i lost my monorail card in the office. but yes in the end, i found it HIDING in my bag.

third, i forgot to bring my umbrella the other day when it rained heavily and i know my friend can offer me to share hers but then both of us will get wet too...so i dont want to be the cause of that. that's why i offer myself to the rain. hehehhe...

fourth, i washed my mug and left it at my landlord's kitchen and now how the hell am i gonna have a hot drink in the room???!!! they will only be back after 5 days. and that means i have to buy a new mug :(

there are more to tell but i guess i better stop whining since im using the office's pc, like always. Better get ready for the POSTMORTEM

till then....

funny joke you should read...

as i was checking all my emails today, and found this stupid joke really funny and stupid. i think u might think the same too, that's why im putting it here so all of u can have a laugh...hehehe, a medicine for the day. Check it out people, here it is...

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples. The nun made a note, and posted it on the apple tray:

"Take only ONE. God is watching."

Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.

A child had written a note there, saying: "Take all you want. God is busy watching the apples."

>>>> wut an innocent Kid!!!
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The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.

"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say,

'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.'

A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher. She's dead. "

>>>> the teacher was backfired for trying to sell out the copy of the pictures...muahahahhahahahha

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one day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.

She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hair white, Mom?"

Her mother replied, "Well, every time you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."

The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said,

"Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

>>>> i think kids today are smarter...

How to make a better world?

one more hour and im allowed to go home but then my co-supervisor asked me out for lunch and It's PIZZZZZAAAA some more, How to RESIST that???????? but then again, eechi is waiting for me in the room. I promised her that i go home early so that we can go to Sogo together, and that reminds me of that shoe in Sogo which i really want to buy. My heart is pining for it... hah, let time decide...

Cik Laila just informed me this morning before i went to animal house for dosing, that one of the lecturer in UPM is looking for a molecular student to fill up the position as RA under her,if im not mistaken i think the name is Dr. Rahmah, i mean the one who wanted to hire someone for that vacancy. oh well, been discussing with jo regarding to this matter...and tell ya, it's one of the hardest decision for me to make... its like choosing a Kelisa over a RAV4 - u know the significant differences between these two cars right. One is just a simple car, cheap maintenance and small while the RAV4 is absolutely luxurious car but then, when it comes to fuel or maintenance...it's become the most "pain-in-the-ass" expenses. *sigh*

and again i would say that time will decide everything... whether i should just go back to KK and keep my mouth shut about these whole thing or ignore all the painful feelings and go for it. *yerk* this is hard...
To chris, i know its hard for both of us...but u know my feelings for you...
well okay.... there are plans to be made tonight but it's just one of the thing that i would like to keep it as a secret and regardless to all these craps, ive finished reading the "Da Vincci Code" and it sure has the potential to trigger the faith of those who are weak...but then as i checked in the internet for some assurance of the facts made by Dan Brown - the brilliant author of ALL TIME- some referred his book as FICTION basically and some says, that book is full of craps... oh well, i dunno abt them but as a true christian, doesnt matter what the theories are or how valid are the facts made by those intellects but i certainly will stick to the bible and my faith will never change even for a bit... how about LIONEL???? i would really love to know abt his reaction to that book since he's a bit fanatic to the theory of evolution and have little faith on - CREATION - i mean he after all admit it...so i wasnt just saying that - oh well, this has got to stop......

my fRiDaY aFtErNoOn

it's friday afternoon and it's damn hot outside...just came back from Medan Tuanku and now im sweating like a pig... lucky thing the office aircond is well functioning or else, i might as well give out a pig smell..hehehee...

this morning we had an urgent meeting with all the staff...and it was all about a girl in pytochem lab who was handling chloroform in OPEN AIR and was admitted to the hospital due to the effect of the reagant!!!! so apparently, my supervisor was quite shocked and pulled out a meeting this morning regarding to Lab safety. She reminded us to take it seriously so to avoid any unwanted incidents. they had printed out all the necessary rules on paper and sticked it on almost every corner of the lab, so others might take extra precaution when handling chemical reagants.

as i have promised to myself, i went to Laza Diamond to buy a white gold pendant for my necklace, then visited Borders again. It drove me insane not being able to buy at least one book for myself. but the other part of me are telling me to save money. *sigh*

Before heading back to the office, i went back to my room in Medan Tuanku. I met an old lady, sitting at the sideways of the street selling dry food (keropok). i was reluctant to buy at first but when i see the lady's expression, i couldnt just walk away and ignore that look. so i stopped by and bought two packets of it which cost me rm4. but it's not the food that i am paying for, it was an honest gesture of helping that lady, plus those food can be eaten after all. :)

After 3 minutes of walking, i reached the staircase which will lead to the front door of my room. so like usual, i went up and went straight to my room. without wasting any more time i boiled wome water using the kettle which was actually owned by fifa. she was being so kind to lend it to me so that i wouldnt have to go through some hassle of having to buy it for my own use. hhahah, yes.... its no suprise that i had maggie and tea for lunch... i know it's a weird combination of having maggie and tea at the same time for lunch. but it was fine for me :) :) i did enjoyed my meal tho' it was way tooooo simple.... i managed to buy some stamps for future use and post my letter which will eventually reach to chris's hand...

on my way back to the Monorail station, i feel relieved to see that old lady is having more than 4 customers. at least she wasnt wasting her time sitting there. oh well, the story after that is kinda boring so i dun think it's necessary to jot down everything here. till then ya... and thanks for wasting ur time reading my blog. i will entertain you with more pictures when the time allows me ok.... :)

hey hey hey hey hey, obviously im bored!!!!

gosh, it's already 4pm....and im bored tho' im still in the office and again the office is almost empty... probably PY, Roshan and Ridzhan are doing MTT assay with En. Dino and ive just finished with my report on IMR research activities, which is to satisfy Ridzhan who'd been asking for it since we first started doing our training here.

ooopssss, i want to continue but suddenly i feel something is not connecting to my body....wuahkkkk!!!! nature call!!!!! BIG ONE!!!!! LATERZZZZZZ.........

wut a slow day!!!! my office is almost empty now, few of the important staffs are still out for some important cases... and as an intern, we have to stay here still...but best of all, i Have the "Da Vincci Code" to read and fifa was right, the book is really addictive!! goodness..... i have only managed to read a quarter of it and today will be the third day of my exploration on Dan Brown's piece of art...erm, it's more to writing, oh duh! hehehehhe

so i was just reading through Shah's tip on how to chat with your contacts via friendster...and after few trials of clicking here and there, only now that i know what he meant by the nicknames with smiley face. for those who are yet to discover anything about Shah's tips, i think you can check on the bulletin Board on friendster.

I was quiet today and everybody was asking "ru having PMS?".... i chuckled everytime they asked that. I guess i enjoyed reading Da Vincci code too much and totally forgot that im still on earth! ehhehehehhe.... it's a good book, u have my word!!

Still waiting for my Burger King...Kinda hungry... my collegues went to KLCC to buy movie tickets for us (my co-supervisor belanja) and i asked Zairi to buy me burgers and i think they are still on the road since you know la KL, traffic jam is everywhere....

5 more weeks and i am back to KK... *sigh*

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven"

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven", originally uploaded by fellie.

This is actually a commercial ads for Haagen Daz but you are one of the fortunate earthlings to view it first...ahhahahahha

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven"

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven", originally uploaded by fellie.

This picture is taken after the movie... for those who doesnt know Azfar's queen of heart..there she is, the tallest girl in the picture...

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven"

The day for "Kingdom of Heaven", originally uploaded by fellie.

The day we went to Sunway to watch Orlando Bloom's "kingdom of Heaven"

Genting Day

Genting Day, originally uploaded by fellie.

Azfar, Wongus, Fifa, Eechi, Chris and I went for a one-day-trip to Genting... we had fun tho' we didnt manage to try all the rides in Genting

my down moments

urghhh...i hate the feelings im having ryte now... im trying my best to think positive but i think the probs im having now is just "Damn, what shits am i having ryte now?"

i had a great time for the last two weekends... Chris came a week ago and i had the most blissful weekend in KL.... went for skating in Sunway, Borders and Genting... i guess if i wrote about his visits earlier i might have given u every details of our activities but i guess it's too much to write now... so let me shorten it up by saying that it hits me really bad when he had to go back to KK.. i just cant see him go, and it feels like lifeless again...

*sigh* i know i have to be strong...

so now, it has been two weeks since chris left for KK... but life must go on...and i have 5 more weeks to go before saying goodbye to this big city so i need to mould back all my energy to build another tower of confidence and patients so i wont fall again...

tomorrow will be the 5th week im in IMR and i was actually offered by my co-supervisor to go for RA in IMR since they are having this big project that will involve 90 Rats and i dunno how many monkeys and they say it's critical so they need more staff to handle the project... im still in the 'consideration making'... i duno whether to take that opportunity or just stay in KK...

well, nothing really bad hits me except for Chris leaving me again... everything had gone perfectly well and i just have to fix my head on the fact that life has been good here.... yes, so why am i feeling these shits ryte now? and im freaking scared of it.... DAMN!!!! oh dear, i shouldnt let u all read this... but i guess im speaking from my mind now.. i hope it wont hurt you to read this... it's just one of my down moments and i just cant help it..but i guess after these shits i'll be uploading pictures to my blog so u can see what i was up to for the past few weeks...
till then...see ya...